Just ME!

When I already posted something, that means I have totally got over you! That there isn’t something else but friendship! There will be no awkwardness whenever I face you or when our paths accidentally cross! 😉

Realizations are sometimes late. Sigh! Yet, there’s always a time for you to put into actions those realizations. And charge to experience those you had when you weren’t able to realize yet. Somehow, I’m glad i did try again. I tried to save whatever we had ‘coz somehow I believed that it was worth saving ‘coz when I asked for someone, you were that one HE gave, that’s why I was able to decide to go forward. But then, you were sent for another purpose. Hopefully, you can find within yourself the person that I was able to see. I understand what you are going through, my advise, sometimes you need to share problems, especially if you can no longer carry it on your own. I can’t be a friend to you if you don’t let me be.

and it’s officially over! but, not over as never gonna talk over, just going back to where we started-as friends. and i’m partly glad but of course sad, but i guess we did the right thing. and i’ll always be here for him and he’ll always be there for me just like a bestfriend. others may say that as if nothing happened, but that’s just the way we wanted it and we’re happy! eventually, everything’s gonna be okay! we still love each other though but now, no more expectation! 

Now, I really do not know what is happening or simply because I’m inexperienced regarding stuffs like this. It’s just that it’s not the same anymore. Having doubts or simply seeking his attention or maybe I really do not know him. Confused! I wanna do something but I might regret doing it at the end 😒

You’re the one reason I wake up in the morning, you’re the one reason I find a way to smile, you’re the one person that can change everything around when it is going bad. Your eyes, your smile, your everything, your laugh, your look in your eyes when you talk to me. It’s just everything about you that makes me want you even more. I love you, and happy monthsary

From: HIM <3

At last, he’s not busy. I thought he has some time for me already. But, he always end up tired and sleepy. I know I should understand this. And YES, I DO. But, I just wanna express myself that I WANT to get angry, but I DIDN’T. HE DID! For he said that I was being unreasonable. Is it unreasonable EXPRESSING yourself and for wanting to spend some quality time even through phone? TELL ME!

HE sent me messages that totally hurt me. Words that I didn’t expect that he would be able to tell me. It’s hard to just swallow my pride. BUT, I did ask SORRY. And after saying so, I thought he would also say sorry for those words he said to me. But instead, he said that we are not yet finished. That, that conversation has a continuation. I waited for his text, but I didn’t receive any. I don’t know what to do. I want a closure. I don’t what stuffs like this disturb my already occupied mind! =(

I didn’t expect that our conversation would end like that. It was a very serious talk, and you, yourself, know that minsan ka lang magseryoso. Thank You! That meant a lot!

I’m very HAPPY! but, (talagang may but ha?!) there’s a lil’ bit of fear. Honestly, I don’t wanna feel this fear. But, in your own little ways, you help me ease this fear. I may not be able to vocally express it, but YOU are very special to me! Di ko man masabi ng diretso, but everyday, I miss you!

Shocks, you don’t know how you make me feel kilig! Even a little touch from you, GOOSEBUMPS! Tine.tease mo man ako na chicken skin, duh?! okay lang! Hahaha…

Words that came from you last night.. wow! it really touched my heart. You even made me speechless and I just can’t digest it immediately! Were those words really for me??

But, most of all sorry! you know na for what!

Thank You!

P.S. still, i wanna hear those words from you! I won’t tell what! Guess! hahaha..

I just read my post entitled OUTLET… and it got me wondering that until now, I still can’t acknowledge what I’m feeling about you. Honestly, I just want us to be friends, the way we should be. I’m afraid to let you know what is this I’m feeling for I really treasure what we have between us.

Please I’m begging you to help me understand what is this for I’m totally an alien about stuffs like this. Please don’t let me misinterpret your actions and please do clear the boundary! Owkie?!

Since wala ka namang tumblr… i’ll be posting stuffs here that i can’t post sa twitter or sa facebook…

Safe pa rin, kasi di naman siguro nila (my followers) alam kung sino tinutukoy ko…

 Honestly, I don’t know what’s this feeling…it’s so new to me…You are the first one to make me feel like this… I’m so scared to name this feeling for I may get hurt if I decide to acknowledge this one…

I know I should clear the boundary between us… but, whenever I’m with you…I just wanna be free…experience new things… experience being kilig!!! wahahahah….

I’m afraid! Honestly!! For this may be one-sided…but what the heck!!! Be it one-sided or not! I’m going to continue fantasizing you!!! =))))) Clearly, THAT night was indeed a very memorable night!! 

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so true!!!! it seems like the first and middle part weren’t important… :/

I kept playing back in my mind what happened that night…

Yes!!! It was my fault…and I’m sorry for that!!!

I tried to approach you the following day, but you didn’t want to talk to me.

I understood why, and decided to give you time…

I walked home crying that night by the way!!

I may say “I’m OKAY!”, but deep inside “HELL NO!”…

And now, I just found out that you said you don’t have any plans of reconciling with me…

I was like *blank*, and just said “UHMMMM, OKAY THEN!”

Afterwards, when I finally was alone, I cried my heart out.

I just MISS YOU. And, I want us to be OKAY!!